Lost Gem

It feels as if I had just one feather in my cap and I lost even that. Yes, losing your closest and only friend feels the same. Had I not been so silly, I'd have not lost him. I have always valued his presence in my life. He knows, he knows that very well, how much he means to me, and what his absence does to me. But maybe enough of his time I've had already, maybe now it's the time for me to dwell in hell, for I've been in heaven for too long, maybe? I don't know what has happened and where did all the colors of life go? When did they all fade so soon? Where did he disappear, where has all the merry time gone? I just don't know, if it was a mirage or a true lake that dried as soon as I could reach near it, maybe it was a dream that flew away with my sleep, maybe it was a momentary happiness that I was supposed to cherish and now the pain is all that remains.

It is strange how someone can become your entire universe and then someday they leave you lifeless, colorless and torn all at once. They, who couldn't ever see you crying leave you in tears on one sudden day, everything changes within a moment, life is lost and you still have to breathe, this is an irony, indeed.

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In Tears

I see her weep,
I do not know what to do,
To ask her not to weep,
Or to first try myself not to cry.
For the worst part is,
It is her birthday and I don't know how to make her smile,
After all,
Life has taken from her,the person who brought her to this world,
Oh it is her birthday,
And she is in tears for her mother isn't here,
No longer is she here to clasp her daughter in her arms.
I don't know what to do,
I'm hurt terribly,
Seeing my mother crying breaks me,
Watching her weep for her mother,
It really makes me want to die.
How much pain will life bring, to her, to us?
I wonder when will she be able to smile?
I cannot stop crying myself how do I get up and wipe her tears?

Please come back

I'll write letters to you each day.

Even if they don't reach you,

I write them everyday.

My world was incomplete without you,

And it would remain incomplete in your absence too,

So now memories are all I've,

I get drenched in the rain of pain and past,

You've gone and I literally fight a battle against death,

I exist, I breathe,

Trust me,

That too is still too much for me.

Trying to Exist

You did nothing to keep me in your life,

Even my priorities, for you, I kept aside.

I lost everything for I didn't wish to lose you.

In your presence I learnt to live,

And then you went away leaving me to exist.

I'm breathing now,

That is all I can do,

In miseries you left me,

All the time,I weep, I die, 

But nothing bothers you anymore,

Maybe because you don't consider me anything of yours.

You Left

I will never forget the way you left,

You left me in tears,

As though you never cared for me,

For you drifted too apart,

Despite knowing you're the one in my heart.

You left me still and numb,

My bones are soaked in woes,

For you grew a little too cold.

Unknown Land

To an unknown land, 

He flew months ago.

Away from home,

With colorful dreams and hope.

Among new people, 

At an entirely new place,

Surely, an amazing experience he has gained.

May he accomplish all his goals,

And achieve everything he has ever been wishing for.

Silence

I don't know if silence speaks to everyone or not,

It does speak to me, at times, it speaks of love,

At times, it speaks of remorse.

Sometimes silence does not speak at all,

For someone grows too apart,

And this is when it hurts the most,

For the silence shouldn't fail to reach the soul,

As long as it speaks of something,

We know that we matter to them,

And the day silence silences,

It worries me the most.